It thinks it’s an espresso machine, but it’s still a duck.
Why ?
Well, let me tell you a little story.
20 years ago, I was in London, out of work, with two children, and no income.
And I was so worried.
About money.
Money has always been a big worry for me.
My little boy was 4 & I was too anxious about money to buy him a toy, which broke my heart.
I looked & looked for work, but … nothing.
So I decided I would start a business in catered espresso.
My idea was that I would take a demountable espresso bar and machine to corporate clients, fêtes, fairs & events, & provide espresso coffee.
With my advanced certificate as a barista, & having trained with the world barista champion, I decided to give it a go.
So I invested £3,500 on a LaSpaziale commercial espresso machine, plus another £1,000 on a coffee cart to my design.
It was made of stainless steel and & shaped like one of those 1950's silver caravans, all curves and sleek and gorgeous & sexy.
I even got a graphic artist to design a flyer, which I had printed.
And … well … I did actually do a few events.
I showed up in a few halls & at my kid’s Catholic school’s annual fundraising day and made Irish coffees.
But then … I couldn’t join the dots on how to turn my investment into a viable income to support my family. I couldn’t see the path.
Lining up ducks was what I knew how to do.
I knew how to create the infrastructure, do the research, buy the coffee machine, design the coffee cart, but I didn’t have the emotional capacity to allow myself the time to learn, grow, & sit with the fear as my money dwindled as I learnt the business.
I got frightened.
I gave up on my vision, and eventually returned to the safety and predictability of the same old boring, unfulfilling contracts I hated so much for the next dozen years.
Instead of “minimum viable investment” I’d made “maximum unviable investment!”
Instead of testing my idea in the market first I’d cut & run to safety when it got hard !
I’d lined up my ducks but not had the courage to pull the trigger.
But I didn’t know any better. That was my best effort at the time, & at least I gave it a go.
Since then I’ve grown myself, & my capacity to hold emotion, irrespective of whatever is happening outside to me.
This is personal power, which is priceless.
Now I have an expensive espresso machine, languishing in a storage unit, hardly used for 20 years.
It’s more than just a duck, it’s a dead duck, wouldn’t you say?
Do you have a dead duck story too?
Love Bobbi ❤️
Inspirational speaker | Transformation Coach | Trans Woman | Model
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