One summer I signed up with a yacht crewing agency in the French Mediterranean port of Antibes.
I had just sailed in a tiny 25’ yacht with friends from England to Bordeaux. We entered the French canal system, & passing by the massive concrete WW2 U Boat pens left over from the war, motored along the Canal Latéral to Toulouse, where I left to travel by train to Antibes to meet a friend.
Unfortunately, my friend didn’t show, & so I explored that little port by myself while I waited for the agency to find me a berth.
In my small hotel the first morning I was awakened by my landlady who, with an enthusiastic “bonjour” burst into my room with croissants & jam, juice & coffee & threw open the drapes to let the morning sunshine fill my room !
I wandered the streets for many days, soaking up the atmosphere & sunshine, waiting for my berth, but eventually decided to meander back to London instead where I still had a working holiday permit, income, & certainty.
And this seemed to me to be the sensible thing to do. My permit wasn’t going to last forever & one should make hay while the sun shines, right?
Don’t get me wrong, I had many exciting adventures as I travelled through Europe on my way back to London that summer, saw amazing things, met fabulous people, but no matter how I justified my decision I knew in my heart of hearts that I had chosen safety over risk, the known over the unknown.
Oh I know you could argue I'd made the “right” choice, but I often wonder who I would be today, where I would be, how my life would have turned out differently if I'd taken more of a risk & trusted myself, & maybe waited in Antibes just one more day.
So I ask “What if?”
we were to take more risks, & trust ourselves & our intuition just a little bit more?
we were to follow our hearts & our soul’s calling instead of our heads & logic?
we were to dive head first into the discomfort of not knowing the path, only to discover that we don’t need to know the path – we just need to know the next step & the path always appears before us ?
As I look back at the decision I made that day, when I forsook adventure & excitement in exchange for safety & certainty, I can’t but help pause & wonder & regret just a tiny bit “what if?”.
So let me ask you, what is your “what if?”
What could life be like if you were to follow your heart & passion instead of doing what seems logical & sensible?
Is there something tugging at you, a calling, that you were born to fulfil one day?
“One day there will be no more one days!”
Love Bobbi ❤️
Inspirational speaker | Transformation Coach | Trans Woman | Model
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